Wednesday, December 17, 2014

of December 2014


Assalamualaikum and hi.


I’m going to write on random things in this post, it’s been a while. So now... no chronological, no list, no resolution, no highlight….just random. It could be confusing.

December is one of my favourite month.

Another 2 weeks to 2015.

Can someone stop every clock in this world and let me go back to my slumber.


I'm so glad you made time to see me.
How's life? Tell me how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while.
(Back to December - Taylor Swift)


(December 2012)

I remember towards the end of 2012, I was contemplating on not moving on with life. My father passed away that year and I was still engulfed with shocked and sadness. I need to move one as I have teaching practice and graduation coming in 2013. I always have this sort of obligation to be full gear and positive. But I didn’t want to be all that. I want to stay ugly sobbing and vulnerable. 

(December 2013)

In 2013, I had my 6 months teaching practicum which is one of the amazing things. I was on track again. I dedicated myself fully to my teaching and trying to give the best version of myself. Then graduation happened. By the end of 2013, I was fidgeting with worries and nervousness as I was dealing with my new job. It was very new and overwhelming.


So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night,"
And I go back to December all the time.
(Back to December - Taylor Swift)



(December 2014)

Then it was 2014. I entered my 26th years of life. Definitely I could felt leaving my childhood and teenage years behind. Facing more responsibilities and making crucial decisions. Adapting and being more flexible with life concerns. 

(When the truth is i'm forever yolo)


Every December, this happened.

Staring-at-long-legs happened.

Air-kisses happened.

My self-esteem dissipated into thin air happened.

Victoria’s Secret Show happened.

I should be writing on Malala Yousafzai or inspiring TED Talk on education or something about Emma Watson’s HeforShe Campaign. But here I am admiring VS models.

I can see the commotion of embracing real body sizes. The "All about that bass". It's important for every girl out there to not fall into the media's concept of ideal beauty.

I understand when people put out arguments on women-walking-around-with-undergarments-and-wings. I respect your opinion if you don't find any significant of VS to one’s life. But it has..at least to mine. The VS models are inspiring figure as well. The years in modelling, vibrant personality, crazy workout and all the truth it takes for them to stay in the business make them confidenct and strong women.

Victoria Secret's Show 2014. Ed Sheeran's Thinking Out Loud performance.



Victoria Secret's Show 2013. Taylor Swift's I Knew You Were Trouble performance. 



I still haven’t got any secret note on my car. You know I always wanted a note on my car. Maybe for my birthday.  Puhhhleasee. Yen, Gel or Audrey, I’m counting on you girls to put it. But I know some of my family and friends read this blog. Jangan kamu prank saya. One day nanti tgk kereta full with flyers “Easy loan with ah keong”, saman atau brochure jualan murah CKS…..mau sangat kan secret notes.

I'm kinda looking for travel partner.. meh meh… I'm adventurous, easy going and quite good in taking your pictures. (resume attached!)

This tudung bawal sulam-sulam re-appeared again. This time around, it was at UMS booth during MAHA2014 in UKM. Thank you to siapa yang pilih this gambar purba. Lain kali pilih lagi. kalau ada royalti pn ok. Haha.

muka tu...tolonglah (and thank you to a lovely friend, zalikha who let me know about this)


I want to go to the beach at night. Camping, or just sit on a mat. Not alone la.....gila ka apa. With friends (and emynadira...you've crossed my mind). Tapi yang aku risau, tengah camping ada pula anjing ikut ampai sekali. Hurmm.. I need suggestion of places.

I found out that it’s such a turn on for someone to remember my food preference.

Throughout the years I still think I'm the same person. I hope you find it the same too. The fact that I'm going to be 27 next year. Sounds old! Sounds not fun!


Entering 2015….. I hope everyone around me is content, especially my mum.

May the merciful Allah gives me strength in dealing life.

And many cheap plane tickets please.


forever your silly lady


2015! Bring it on!

Thank you to all who have read this blog. Whether you are my family, friends, students or just a silent reader.  I’m sorry for all the imperfection I caused from my writing. May the happiness always be with you.


And I think about summer, all the beautiful times,
I watched you laughing from the passenger side.
Realized I loved you in the fall.
(Back to December - Taylor Swift)


Feliz Navidad to everyone that celebrating Christmas. May you have a great time with family and friends. Save me some cookies please!

No this is not the last post for 2014. Need to continue the delay posts.


p/s: berminggu-minggu aku peram post ni.. post ka tidak, post ka tidak. 

3 comments:

Kelly Polaris said...

27 masih muda lagi tu sis. Btw, wish u a best of luck. teruskan berblogging. I'll be your loyal readers forever. Selamat maju jaya cikguuuu..hehe. ^^

Farah said...

Hope everything will be well for you kak :)

Niesa said...

Semoga 2015 memberi sinar baru dan jalan cerita baru utk kita..

camping!niesa pun dah lama berangan nak bercamping..tp kwn2 xminat..:(